Course Correction

Yesterday the Louise Hay affirmation in my calendar read “Rather than fix problems, I fix my thinking.  Then problems fix themselves”.  This clearly set up a resonance in my subconscious as my dreams overnight have provided me with valuable guidance, showing me that I have veered slightly off the path I choose for myself.

Last week my department at work internally presented a re-organisation for better performance.  We had know this was coming and whilst no-one knew the shape of it prior to last week I had examined my feelings toward it and concluded that no matter what came I would be fine.  After the initial announcement I had encouraged my colleagues to help see the positive opportunities presented by the changes to be made. However after my consultation where the changes to my individual role were made clear I perhaps reacted a little in shock, for I have been focussed on the wrong things.  I was naturally excited at the opportunities presenting themselves (which I will explain in a moment) to me but this seems to have faded as time has moved forward.

For the last week I have been looking at the queue of work I have to complete, this has been getting longer over the last month.  I also looked ahead to how my role will be changing and anticipating more work, wondering where the time is going to come from to complete it all.  Am I going to turn back into the bitter person that stays late each day and makes sure people know that I’m not happy about it.  As a result I have indeed started to turn back into that person.  The same person that looks at the requests we receive for help each day and thinks “why couldn’t the first person to look at that have fixed it”, “why can’t the person making this request see the easy way to fix it for themselves”.  This is the personality aspect I have been training myself out of.  The one that concentrates on the negative, up till now I have been fairly consistent and this is the most significant lapse I can recall.  I think this is the joy of life, we do not run on rails to guid us along our chosen path to the destination we ultimately have in mind.  We have freedom of choice, for this brief time I have chosen to indulge that personality trait.  Reacting out of fear rather than the sound knowledge that I can cope with whatever changes are made.  Indeed last weeks calendar affirmations were precisely on this topic.  Relating that changes in my life are for the better and that I welcome them.  So here is how I am fixing my thinking…

Firstly the changes to my role are that I will be taking more responsibility in terms of service ownership for my areas of expertise.  To help me with this I will have three members of the team reporting directly to me, with all the inherent HR administration activities that go with that.  My fear was that I was not ready and would not be good enough (or as good as our current Team Leader who has set a high standard to follow).  I now choose to change these fears into an affirmation –
“I have been asked to take on increased responsibility, both in looking after my areas of expertise along with three great team members.  I am ready for this, I will do my best and I will be better than good enough!”

Next up is the area that my dream sequence really hit home on which has been my attitude and thinking towards the requests I have recently received.  As you can see I have been neglecting to apply the loving positive energies in these situations and therefore reacted badly to them.  Regardless of the reason for a request being sent they all come to us for a reason, we treat each one individually and will give the best service we can.  This will lead into a discussion to be had with my manager about the single, simple truth of what our team does.  This is Service.  My dream sequence very aptly showed this in a small supermarket environment, I was a shop floor worker for the purposes of the dream.  The company truly believed in great quality customer service.  So much so that if something was shown on the store in the system we would look for it for a customer until we found it.  The most poignant though was the very last experience in this dream, a lady approached me and said “he’s driving me mad, he’s so tired” most of us would expect a response “i’m sorry to hear that” most would be thinking “what has that got to do with me”.  In this dream superstore the answer was “and how can I help you with that”.  Following which I accompanied her back to her husband and child.  The baby was crying so I kneeled down and started talking to him.  In short order he calmed down and the lady was able to shop in calm.  Good customer service is not doing the right thing because you are told to, or even because you know you should.  It is doing it because you choose to, because by giving this service you recognise that you will receive it back.

I believe the message I put out after out initial announcement of looking for the positive opportunities has come full circle and returned to me.  I believe that a number of people have been able to find the positive aspects of the changes in their own circumstances.  Something that despite giving the message I had lost track of doing and so now my own guidance has come back to help me too.

Finally my concern over my workload I release.  The workload is that of the company, the things that are needed to continue to make services work and to improve them.  I am not alone in this regard, I work in a team and if there is more work than I alone can do, I can ask for their help.  My team leader who I find will be a role model for my coming development into my new responsibilities has already offered support and guidance in this area.  I have however thought about this slightly differently and with the difference in aligning of responsibilities he may be able to do even more than that to help alleviate this perceived pressure that I have placed upon myself.  I must also learn that I do not have to take on every task handed out, however for my own good I choose to do quality work for all the tasks I do accept.  I may choose to work late on occasions to finish particular things, this is by my own choice, not out of obligation.

Thank you for those that read this, it has been a very therapeutic morning for me and I still have 30 minutes before my alarm goes off.  I love waking up early, it allows opportunities to get more from the day.  I can be creative whilst still having the time to do all I am asked of at work.  I now choose to steer back to my chosen path and will put the necessary effort in to change my thinking and improve the environment I create for those around me.


About Onyxfishy

I am a thirty three year old guy learning his way through life. In early 2010 I met a special person that changed my view on life. I have subsequently been learning a new way to live aside from the hustle and bustle of making a living. My journey has been going well and so I am choosing to share some of my thoughts and experiences.

Posted on 26 January, 2012, in Dreams, Revelations and tagged , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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